2 yrs ago today we lost our Lola Beans AKA Grumpy Beans. I’ve avoided posting because I do find it hard to share her now that shes gone. Everyday titkok shows me a memory to post and honestly sometimes it keeps me off the app. I dont think anyone really talks about loosing a pet that was popular online. The sad comments are hard. The 2 yrs worth of new people discovering shes gone or people unfollowing because shes gone, thats hard sometimes. Before Lola Beans passed away she was with me 24/7. Always in my arms or on my lap since she was 2 weeks old. The grief I have felt has been so unbearable and posting videos became so hard I just vanished from the internet. No one talks about how hard it truly is when your online world revolves around a pet and then that pet dies. Making people happy watching our videos meant so much to me while everything seemed to crumble in real life. Tiktok was my escape. It’s hard to always post positive videos when you feel down. Today was one of those days. But in memory of Lola Beans. Here is a video never posted before. I have so many great memories with her. Love you Lola Beans forever. Thank you to everyone who has been along for our journey and to those who have just joined us on our new one. Flapping her little wings in heaven. #riplolabeans #princesslolabeans #grumpybeans #cat #catsoftiktok

I still listen to this on repeat, her little voice. #princesslolabeans #riplolabeans #grumpybeans #cat #catsoftiktok

Another Beautiful Memory of Lola #riplolabeans #princesslolabeans #grumpybeans #cat #catsoftiktok

My last Beanie post for today. I miss holding her like this. Every time I see a beautiful sunrise/sunset I know she’s telling me she’s ok. We have so many great memories I’m glad I got to share a lot of them with you all. ❤️ #princesslolabeans #riplolabeans #grumpybeans #cat #catsoftiktok #rip #missyou

Lola Beans, summer memories #riplolabeans #grumpybeans #princesslolabeans

Lola Beans. I hope you’re happy. This was one of my favourite memories with her. We were just sitting by the pond she was watching dragons flies and ducks and I was watching her.❤️ #riplolabeans #grumpybeans #princesslolabeans #cat #catsoftiktok

Not the Beans piggy dipping video😭😹anyone remember this? 2019! #cat #newfiemeow #princesslolabeans #grumpybeans #riplolabeans