Replying to @Streptococcus pneumoniae One of the hardest parts after giving birth to a baby you cant take home. I stuffed cabbage in my bras for 2wks trying to dry up as fast as i could. Looking back i wish i pumped to donate, not to dry up. I could have helped so many babies, but i felt it as a costant reminder my baby was dead. Anyways, i feel like a lot of people find it weird i still have it after so many years. I’m not sure how long i’ll keep it for, but i have a feeling ill never be ready to toss it🥺 My body produced this because of HIM. It feels like its the last thing i have of him physically here with me. Idk. Just bury me with it🩵 #infantloss #bereavedmother #angelbaby #lossmom #breastmilk #pumping #grief