Trigger warning ⚠️ Finally talking about it here on TikTok. Had posted this to my I G on 02.04.2024: I was pregnant and we were so happy. It took us exactly 1 year to get pregnant and finally God had answered our prayers. From the moment we found out I was pregnant, this baby was already so loved. Bella was so happy she kept saying “I’m having a baby sister!” Now we’ll never know if this baby was a boy or a girl. This week has been one of the hardest weeks of my life. We lost what would’ve been our second baby (my second pregnancy). The cramping was so intense and I bled so much. I’m in so much pain both physically and emotionally 😔 Losing a child has to be the worst thing for a mother to go through. The heartache of miscarriage is so isolating, lonely and just so hard. Especially because it’s something that’s not really ever talked about. I am devastated to say the least. Been crying all week. And my poor Bella just looks at me and says “it’s ok mommy.” I’m trying to stay strong for Bella but it’s harder for me since I still look pregnant but with an empty womb 😭 I had pictured Bella being a such a good big sister. Helping me change diapers and holding baby so gently. Playing with baby, signing to baby like she always sings to me. I pictured myself holding you, touching your face and kissing you. But God had other plans for us. I never got to look at your beautiful face or hold you my baby or hear you call me mama. Or rock you and nurse you to sleep. I will always grieve for you my baby. You will always live in my heart. I miss you and love you so so much! Until we meet again… 👼🏼 P.S: This was very hard to post but this baby deserves to be known. Miscarriage shouldn’t be a topic we feel we have to hide or feel ashamed about 💔 If you’ve gone through this or are going through it like myself, you are not alone although it feels like an incredibly lonely time 😔 #miscarriage #grief #uterinefibroids #babyloss #infertility #pregnancy #fibroids #fibroidsawareness #fibroidtumor #miscarriageawareness #infertilityjourney #ttc #ttcjourney #pregnancyloss #prenancyjourney #motherhood #fibroidsandpregnancy #fibroidssuck #postpartum #postpartumafterloss #postpartumaftermiscarriage