It’s been 3 months & 4 days since I lost you… everyone has been asking me where I’ve been… truthfully, I’ve been in so much pain. Losing you was the worst thing that could have happened to me. The love you gave me… no human being has ever given me that. I’m alone now… you were my last companion… I chose you when you were a puppy… 17 years ago… I was a first grader… I’m about to be 24… you were by my side for all those years… I can’t thank you enough… being an only child who grew up in an unhappy home you were my only company. You used your last breath & last ounce of strength to lift up your head to look at me one last time right before you left me. You looked at me right in my eyes. You did not leave without saying goodbye. My life changed so much without you. I left home. I look fine on the outside but on the inside I’m a complete mess. I’ve been going through so much pain. I feel so lost & alone without you. You’re all I had left & now I truly have nothing. My heart is honestly bleeding. What do I do without you. When no one was there for me you laid there with me until I stopped crying. When I felt sick you stayed by my side. You made me laugh so many times & those kisses man… I really don’t know how I’m doing it. I just want to hold you. All my life all I’ve been surrounded with is negativty. I’ve gone through so much pain & sufferage but you were the only thing that kept me going. My only positivity, motivation & love. I miss you. This is excruciatingly painful. I love you forever, more.