Tomorrow will be four years since my beloved Sunny went home to be with Jesus. There were three wonderful years between the time the twins were born and Sunny was diagnosed with brain cancer. Every video I have of her from that time is priceless. I wish there were more (Sunny was usually the one behind the camera). Each clip reminds me of how much I miss her laugh and how much joy she brought to each day. There was rarely a day without laughter. Her joy bubbled up naturally, on good days and bad. The kids smiled because she smiled. The joy of the Lord was truly the secret to her strength. More than anything, Sunny wanted to be a Mom. She LOVED motherhood. And she was the most fun mom around. She even managed to make the mundane enjoyable. Her shoes are impossible to fill and my heart aches at my inadequacy and makes me miss her presence all the more. She would be having the time of her life right now. Every year we had together was a gift. And the older Stephen & Grace get the more Mom shines through. They are full of her joy and laughter. The joy of the Lord is their strength too. I can hardly believe God was so good to bring Sunny into my life. It’s impossible not to miss someone like her. I don’t understand but I’m grateful. I don’t know why but I trust. There is a greater plan unfolding that I can’t see. And I feel honored to be a part. It may feel like forever, but our time on earth is but a fraction of the eternity we’ll spend with Jesus. Sunny is where she always longed to be: in the presence of her Savior, cheering us on, smiling and saving a space for us. ☀️ Nehemiah 8:10 #grief #griefjourney #death #cancer #heaven #sorrow #joy #peace #hope #widow #widower