For someone who has been in flight and fight mode for years, guilt is finding its way to creep in whenever my life feels at peace. And it's hard when all my life I only craved for peace. Years of survival have programmed my nervous system to feel wary and anxious about things that might happen in the future. That's why feeling at peace at this time really took a lot of overthinking and procrastinating in me that I am still trying to overcome and remove from my system. I am teaching myself that to feel at ease is a normal thing. That I have nothing to worry about if today has been just an ordinary one.