The thought of letting go of the last of Ethan’s breastmilk has felt overwhelming for months now. So I held onto it and waited until it felt right. I had a deep desire for it to go to someone special, I thought about it often but never prayed about it. A couple weeks ago Eric and I were running errands. I decided to open up my ‘human milk for human babies’ fb group that is silenced on my page (that way I can control when I see it). There was a women who lived somewhat close to me with an ask out for milk. After I commented that I had milk we began messaging with each other. I noticed from her pictures she had a Heart Hero of her own. She noticed my pictures too and asked me if my son had passed. After I shared Ethan’s story with her she told me she lost her daughter at the same hospital awhile back. Her daughter shared a name with me and we connected for hours in messenger about our journeys. We agreed that Ethan and Allison must be playing in Heaven together. I told her this all felt like a big hug from Heaven because I wanted this donation to be special but I never prayed about it. He knows our hearts friends, when we pray and when we don’t. He knows our hearts. #chdawareness #heartheroes #countitalljoy

Just making sure

Happy First Birthday Ethan Samuel! You will forever be remembered by your strength, Joy and your smiles. Thank you for being our son and thank you for teaching Dad and I so many lessons on life and love. We cannot wait to be reunited with you sweet one. Until then, enjoy the wildflowers. Run free. And tell your aunty to take good care of you! #countitalljoy

In disbelief its been a whole year